a visualization

If you're new to these writings, welcome. Up front, and throughout them however are the reiteration of the basic fact that i am not an authority on reality. I can do, and have read 1000's of scientific papers, journaled accounts of various phenomena, practiced experiments, turned many a wrench, soldered many a circuit and it's extremely likely i had my hands on something you've purchased, read or seen in some store. I practice mediation daily, consistency pooh-pooh beliefs, and to emphasize, i am also a rabid "self-talker" (we often find this as a sign of crazy people, such as it is). So you can take what your read here, just seriously enough to be useful in some profound way, or just chalk it up being crazy.

Anyway, this entire site is narrated around a blinking thought that these are deep conversation with myself, but it's a rouse; what goes on in here is a slightly modified interpretation of everything that goes on out there, an inference if you will. So subtle, so vapid, it's indistinguishable from this, reality. There are not and cannot be any individual that can go out there, examine things and return in here report their findings. There's no barrier which can be crossed that takes you somewhere else in which to investigate this reality. Which includes things like brains, skulls and sensors, man-made or otherwise. This is deeply how you are adichotomy (ineffably inseparable from it's host) composed throughout as a duality of self and other.

My main motivation is to document this experience and report on my findings, but also realize that it's truly an impossible task, not because it's hard or that it's a limit of mind, but because it's truly a paradoxical task, a non starter. One that is impossible to give up on or be more in tune with. So, i paint this picture with words, but you already experience the story and by proxy, tell it to no one in particular that could go anywhere else.