an answer to this -everything-

I'm writing this to not sugar coat the red or blue pill for anyone, for most readers this pill is brutally hard to swallow, but the relief is relentless. Let's get to it:

You are no one in particular

Sitting there, reading this right now, means you have the vapid ability to comprehend language, you're breathing, your physical interactions have edges and yet you are in constant (although stable) flux. From the beginning of this paragraph, to where you are now; you cannot intuit how far you have moved away from any other thing in relation to what is not immediately here, this presence. This isn't an imaginary, psychological conundrum, presence is stable movement and right now you're in the sweet spot of such a duality, as a duality, among more of the same.

There's no where to go

There isn't some later place to be, no heaven that isn't already here (or hell). As a matter of fact, this planet, rotating around this sun, during this relative frame of time, is about as heaven/hell as it gets. Eternal bliss or suffering not only couldn't exist, they couldn't exist independently of you. This stability in motion. You don't get to escape the pain/pleasure duality. Peace is always the case. The mundane, nondescript you, drenched and enshrined fully with drama, moving to the next scene.

We are indivisible from creation

Be it an artist or an art lover, you are (all of this is), creation, is drama, there is no other sort of experience. There is no ineffable being out there that's driving creation, investing in your personal habits, your desires... you are the judge, the jury and the sentencing, indivisible. Nothing truly gets added or removed, ever.

But, i don't like X

While you might feel as though you avoid X, yet X is an integral to your being, you don't need to consume it or even acknowledge it. But, you will ultimately address it, and come to terms with it.

-fin